Well, this winter has been an odd one by Oregon standards. I’ve only been here just over 4 years and this has been a weird season to say the least! I have to say though, this Alaskan girl is loving the snow. We actually had a white Christmas! It’s the little things.
I’m back to the grindstone at a part time job, another creative one that will hopefully be fulfilling and fun. So far it has been! I have always had a love for floral design since my days at a large retailer, and now I am at a smaller retailer. It’s great to be in such a specialized business where creativity is appreciated on a larger level! The blessings in disguise-besides a steady paycheck!-are my sweet coworkers. All of them are artists/creatives in some way or another. From day one we have encouraged each other. While we may work in retail for most of our days, we have to find time to be creative, to create, to find space in our day(s) to keep at our craft.
This is something I have struggled with while paying down my lovely student loan debt. Will I ever work on my art full time? Will I always be working for someone else? Did I make a giant mistake by deciding to go back to school for a while, only to have a super clear vision of what I want as a freelance artist and leave? I have such solid support from my coworkers and my friends and family, and I know that when I look back at this time, I need to be at peace with my decisions. It will all come in time, I remind myself daily. I need to keep working at my craft, to continue being persistent with my art submissions and to not give up when I get rejected. It’s not a terrible thing to work for someone else, I am not knocking that at all. I have done that for more than half of my life and have had some amazing mentors, managers, and coworkers along the way. I have learned so much from them, from how to properly treat your employees and others to running a business efficiently and with a smile on your face (a genuine one at that!).
I recently watched the movie La La Land and absolutely loved it. It was a fresh, positive, bright star in a sea of repetitive action, poor comedic plots and sequels. Its tagline is “Here’s to the fools who dream.” I want to continue to be that dreamer. For everyone out there that works by night at their craft, keep on keeping on. Don’t give up. Know that where you are now can change, and it might take longer than you think, and that’s ok. Don’t listen to society, there is no timeline.